It’s bad luck to show your spouse-to-be the wedding dress but I know nothing about showing the Internet your different attempts at hair and makeup. There’s nothing wrong with this look, except maybe my hair needs a touchup, but I am upset with my face, my fat, and my general inability to be stunning today.
But today’s not the day so I have time yet. There can still be improvements, such as adding foundation and power to my décollage. Maybe I don’t need as much eyeshadow either. But this dissatisfaction is more than just nitpicking the details: As much as I believe in fat liberation, I still don’t quite love my body.
So this month, I will try different hair and makeup but also I aim to see the beauty that I carry. I want to be able to see myself as beautiful with what I have. I want to look at myself and smile. I want to look at my wedding pictures with fondness.
I am not going to diet or exercise to lose weight. But I am going to see myself many times with different styles, and each time with growing fondness.
Though a little contouring could be nice. I’ll try that out next time.
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